This is me...

 I figure you should probablly know what I look like. Well, this is me. I am average at best. Overweight, short, and obnoxious. But I'm getting used to that I suppose, though I still hate the sound of my own voice.  I mean, who wouldn't LOL....right?....

Well, it's been almost a year since my ex left me. So I've been trying to do my makeup more often to make myself feel better, but it doesn't really work. My nose is too big, my eyes are too small, and my face is too round. And then I can never find the right foundation to match my skin tone so I'm always worried about looking orange. Anyways that's a little bit of information about me, a little more for you to get to know. Maybe I'll start writing on here more...Who knows...

So, this is me. I've been really depressed lately. I was in a serious and committed relationship, and one day he told me that he just didn't love me anymore. Apparently, I didn't tell him I loved him enough... So he left me and moved to Florida...I am not depressed because of that though, that's my life, it was bound to happen. I am depressed because I just feel like I don't matter. I feel like I am useless, worthless and most of all irrelevant. So, about two weeks ago I started cutting myself again, and I am beyond ashamed. I feel like it made me feel better though, to hurt myself, I feel like it was a relief. Like finally I acted on my thoughts and I didn't have to worry about it anymore. I just feel empty. I feel numb.